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Self-Portrait, Berlin 2008. Oil on linen, 24x18 inches. |
Lately, I have spent time meditating on my life. It is amazing
that our minds hold so much information . . . and we are only able to
access bits of it through memory. Why do some episodes stand out more
clearly than others? I am depending on long-term memory when I look
back at the beginning of my life. The complexity is unfathomable. I
imagine that every smell, touch, sound or even ray of light is
encoded in my brain, yet I only access a fraction. Before I learned
language, I was gathering information from my mother and father and
surroundings. Has this formed me into who I am? Of course, my unique
biology, what I am genetically, influences the way in which I
perceive. I am of a sensitive nature, and learn especially through
sensory experience.
So far, I have gone through my memories from birth to the
beginning of college. I am trying to see who I am by looking at the
movie of my life . . . and watching myself from the beginning. I
don't want to censor anything either . . . but see the whole picture
as it has emerged. I am an artist, and as I see the artwork that has
been created thus far, I can take my brush in hand, and then more
confidently paint the future as it is meant to be.
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